someone please just spare a thought for me?

Reality really hits you in the face at times like these..

I am not talking about anyone specifically, but if you read this and feel angry/shock then i guess you are guilty of the following.

Funny how people pray, thank the Lord, say their are Christians yet they behave in such a way..
I saw how people just selfishly make their own decisions (especially the ones to their advantage) and push the tougher part to others..the part where the person have to make the tough decision of choosing between friendship or grades.
I admit that i am selfish too, but atleast i know i cared enough to keep thinking of a better solution, or atleast i don't leave my friend hanging without a group. Its so disappointing when i realise how selfish (its not that bad but..) and HEARTLESS some people are.
I don't know much about God but i know this isn't the way we should behave. Whats the use of going to church/temple to pray, do community work and volunteery work when at the end of the day we become insensitive and so hearltess?
I feel like saying more, just typing down what i feel.. But i don't know how to say it.
If you're going "wtf" or something, i guess you should reflect on yourself first.
Friends, classmates, so disappointing.
And yes it includes me.

we're always finding excuses to make ourselves feel/look better.

=/

someone said this one tv before..
先检讨自己, 再检讨别人。

I'm halfway through "Secrets can be murder".
I've always loved non-fictions and i think this book really takes my attention away from other things.
There's so much about the psychological mind of victims and murderers.
I guess now i know what my other ambitions are.
Okay i shall go entertain two idiots and i'll be back about my conclusion and summary of the book!

i guess sometimes we'll feel like a total reject.

and my time is now.

To anyone who comes across this..

Tell me something you love/hate about me?
 

Almost always, its our pride and ego stopping us from communicating.
If only we have the courage to tell the people in our lives how important they are.
I think even simple words will do. And of course, words should be carried with actions.
Sometimes i really wish my cousin will care for my aunty, my friend A will care for my friend B..blah...and the list goes on.
(And of course myself. i'm trying hard) I just wish people care for one another more because thats what keeps us going (knowingly or unknowingly). I really hope we'll start being more sensitive, care more, be more observant and stop taking people/things for granted.
Maybe i let things slip away from me at times, or hurt people in the process, but i really meant well, really want to be some kind of relationship saviour or something. I really can't take conflicts, cold wars, anger, neglects.

I think its a good and bad thing for me. I learn to care more for people but i get tied down because of people.

Don't know what this post is about but my fingers just started to type these when i came to this page.

Feeling sick in the head, its hurting so badly.

I suddenly feel like i want to stop bothering so much, i want to have no hopes ( =no disappointment).
Okay i know i can't do it.

EDITED
see how i have random lines going through my head.
maybe everytime we feel that we're too fucked up, we should think about the other party or whoever, they're probably feeling fucked up too.

RAH. Goodnight.

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i need some kind of understanding.

need something special, something new.

i feel like i've lost myself in studies.
i wonder if i am really freaked out or i just realise i really need to study hard.
but i am going mad from studying.
its like a sick cycle i am quite used to but i can't take the stress.

the best thing is that today was my third time experiencing COINCIDENCE.
the third time i want to stay home to study but some asshole will start drilling the whole damn day.

i feel damn horrible just thinking about sitting in the exam hall.
and i feel even worse having parents that don't understand that i am really stress.
i guess thats the saddest part of it.

BACK TO STUDIES.

 

its not even funny to begin with.
can't believe i shed my tears for this rubbish.

i feel crazy, literally.

i am thinking hard and wondering what it is that is making me lose my patience, or what it is that makes me want to cry.

i am so stressed up. work, life. so much accomodating and compromising to do, with everyone. its so hard sometimes. its so hard. makes me feel so lost, like i've lost myself because i am not my own priority. i dont know where i stand in my life sometimes. am i asking for too much? or i just take things for granted? maybe i just care too much for my own good. i'm secretly insecure about everything. i don't like losing things, losing love, losing friends, losing a single shit. sometimes school just feels like hell. i think everything begins to feel bad when you feel bad about yourself. yes i do, the moment i begin to feel fat and ugly, i feel like i'm ruining myself. i'm ranting too much.

i guess, sometimes i'll just have to wait till something happens. or wait till crazy moments are over.

I think i screwed this batch's pictures with my lousy photography skills.
And being an ass i took 2 months or so to use up one roll of film.

 
  
 
   


I love the last one the most.